"hap·py
ˈhapē/
adjective
1.
feeling or showing pleasure or contentment." (from Google)
"hap·pi·ness
ˈhapēnəs/
noun
the state of being happy" (from Google)
I've considered myself a pretty happy person my whole life. I don't see why I wouldn't be. There are moments when I'm happier than others and there are moments when I try convincing myself and the crowd around me that I'm happy when I'm really not. We all seem to make our problems stand out from everything else that's in our life. That honestly sucks because there's so much more to life than just reminding yourself of what you're going through and making it seem like it's the only thing in the world that's happened to you. We often think that problems are all that we've got and fail to actually look past the problem and see all of the reasons in life why you should smile or be happy about.
There's always been a phrase that stood out to me for as long as I've heard it. Whether it was in a conversation with someone, in a book, a movie, etc. "Fake it 'til you make it." That seems odd. We surround ourselves with a society who will say fake isn't what you want, and one that'll say you're fake when all that you're doing is being a mature person. There will always be a person you won't get along with, but you'll have to deal with and treat nicely in order to get to what you want. It could be a teacher, a boss, a co-worker, it could be anyone. That's when you "fake it 'til you make it" but you don't fake it when it comes to your actual happiness.
I'm guilty of always stressing, worrying, and overthinking. It sucks because I make what's bringing me down into a straight one way road and my problems seems to be the only ones I see because they're going the wrong way and they're about to crash into me. I've noticed that I always aim for perfection. I never thought of myself as a perfectionist, but I really am and I walked into my 10th grade year thinking that I was going to have straight A's and nothing but straight A's and that I'd be a bad person if I didn't get straight A's. Well turns out I don't have straight A's. (reading this you probably think that I'm saying that with such a breeze like its nothing, but I'm still trying to accept it myself.) I work my butt off working on school work, doing my homework, studying, and going to tutoring sessions. I'm not going to give up on anything, but I'm also not going to let this keep getting in my head. I'm going to take control of this situation because only I can fix my problems, and I can't let them break me. It's so hard to get to the top, but it's so easy to get crumpled. I'm learning to accept that I'm a bright student who's using her potential to the most, but I'm not the smartest person to walk the halls of my school. And I don't have to be. All that I actually have to be is myself, and be and do my best.
There's actually something that's much more important than grades, or boys. It's your life. There are billions of boys out there. There are tons of colleges, and tons of time for you to get your grade up (not really tons of time for you to get your grade up, but I'm trying to be as positive about this as I can.) But there's only one life. You only get to experience the chance (privilege) of living once. We take happiness for granted. What type of world would this be if there was no such thing as feeling happy? What if we were all immune to the emotion of happiness? That's not the world I'd want to live in. Don't let your problems pull you into a never ending black hole of misery. Just be happy that you woke up this morning. Because there are people who didn't. Be happy you're healthy because there's people in this world who aren't and that's all they wish for. Don't let your happiness revolve around a grade or any object. Your purpose in life isn't to make shoes or a purse the main focus of your life. It shouldn't be. As Eleanor Roosevelt said, “Today is the oldest you've ever been, and the youngest you'll ever be again.” So live in the moment. Live and love every moment like it's your last.
I hope this post woke you up a bit, because I've been thinking about writing it for a good week. I just didn't know how to put it to words and into a blog post after I noticed that my happiness wasn't genuine. Remember to smile and laugh more, this time actually mean it. Make every moment count, and make your happiness genuine.
Much love,
Daniela
Xoxo.